Writers must be confident! It’s no place for the faint of heart…right? Well, you sure have to have a certain level of belief in self to survive the reviews that will inevitably cut the legs from under you, but really, even after fifteen or so books, I still doubt my abilities constantly. I finish a novel pretty sure that it’s either a work of staggering genius, or fit to line the bottom of the parakeet cage. I love the quote from author John Toland because it’s so TOTALLY not me. Toland says, “I’ve always had complete confidence in myself. When I was nothing, I had complete confidence. There were 10 guys in my writing class at Williams College who could write better than I. They didn’t have what I have which is guts.”
I just adore that amazing sense of self, but frankly, I ain’t got that. Each novel is the best effort I can make at the time in which I sat down to labor over it, but each book is produced in spite of the doubts which spring to life with each endeavor.